at this point of time, or should i say this is the season. A season which many are at their lowest point. a season which many give up, cant be bothered, disappointed over unachieved goals, disappointed with themselves, or perhaps find life becomes more n more meaningless. And that, u're very dependent on your close friends. theres no more fighting spirit. slacking mood draws in. maybe many find that they have fought alot, but bears no fruit. maybe they find that they put in alot of efforts, and what they got in the end is totally crap. a complete shit cycle, i know. going thru so much and i realise i don dare to get disappointed. i don dare to get sad. i don dare to settle myself into the ' emo mood' .oh well, u may think eadelin, are u crazy or smth. yes maybe. when everyone is in the mood of depression. when everyone gives up. man, i cant imagine whats gonna fall hard on my beloved **. theres still strengths in me, from God i believe. i dunno if theres such thing as postponing ur emo period to a time when everyone is fairly stable. i dunno how long can i last. i just wanna do what i can do. i just wanna be there for you when u need me. i just wanna help whoever needs it. i just wanna cheer u up. it doesnt matter if i'm sad or whatever shit feeling i am going thru, whats more importantly is that, the people around me are doing well. i guess, when people break off from unhappiness, in a way, i would able to find some happiness out of their happiness. so, i love all those who love me. and i love those who hate me (=
To anyone: if u feel very depressed, rmber, i'm here for you. so what if i'm going thru the same shit feeling as you, i believe i can cheer u up? even if u dont, i will still continue to do it. just don give up hope so easily. just don feel tired. life is tiring. thats of course. but at least we have physically tasted the lethargic feeling. u are impt to me. just like how impt u r to God. Life s*x, so what? at least we can hold hands together and dare to say, rejoice!
mentality perserverance outweights physical sufferings.
i love you people.
